Money makes the world go round(and here we go♫)

So I spoke to my accountant(mumsy) and it turns out I now have a $1500 spending limit on crap I want to spend on m'self in regards to saving up money for Japan.
So what does that mean?
I have to really think hard on what I want, and only purchase stuff I need...
I def need a laptop, so..
HP Garden dreams is a must but since I have a walmart credit card, I don't have to worry about paying it all in one sweep
Manga Debut 4: I can purchase later on....along with the wacom bamboo tablet before I leave.But debating if I should put this on my walmart credit card or bestbuy..
The circle lens I ordered The Geo nudy goldenblue ones from honeycolor.com still show they're being processed. Its been a week since I ordered them, sooo...if I don't hear anything by next week. PAYPAL DISPUTE!! And I'll just fedex them from Candylens.com. I should've learned from my old yukata dispute that express shipping with tracking is the best way to go for international stuff...le sigh
Clothes
I still didn't loose all the weight I wanted to, and I will start the dunkan diet tomorrow...sOOoooo, I have to wait to see how my body shape changes.

Here's to loosing 15lbs in 45days
2 more wigs..(I decided when I visit this summer, that I will be rocking a color #33 wigs!)
So I will be wearing Miami/Cara/and Scarlett!! But I'd wear miami the first day, and cara or scarlett for date dates*

♥♥


Plane ticket..........NOW THIS IS THE DOOZY! no boyfriend bashing, I promise
My boyfriend recently asked me how we were going to do the ticket thing. The options were A)I pay and he reimbuses me when I get to Japan
B) I have no idea what was plan B..but it did involve him paying for it alltogether...but he doesn't have a credit card....
If I want to go crazy on m'self...I dunno how I can purchase my ticket and buy stuff...I'd be broke till Augustplus I'm waiting to see when my boss would work on the July. She said she'd start working on it next week.Going with my intuition, I feel I will be working the last week of Saturday in July,or my boss could have me do two Saturdays in July making that weekend,I believe I'm off another 6day week. Ugh, as each day goes by, prices go up ($1,733!! LAST TIME IT WAS AROUND $1,650!)(T_____T) DAMMIT! I can go cheaper if I take a late flight, but I'd arrive in Japan on a Monday if I left on a Saturday(WTF!!??). I'm willing to go the cheap route if I can get that Friday off as well, but I dunno yet. Is there a silver lining in my suffering?YES! I can now spend more than 8days in Japan cause of my trip to NYC has been pushed back to September, but I'm sad to say I don't think I can see my friend Glo before she leaves for S.Korea. My mom doesn't want to drive up to for 5days.....ugh. So I have to try and arrange a date to visit her in Korea =(. I really wanted to hangout with my high school friends again together as a group....just hanging at mimi's house, ordering Japanese food from Saji's near Columbia University where they used Adobo from Goya in their seasoning!!Or atleast it tasted like they did whenever I ordered their katsudon!! And we'd just joke around scaring the hell out of Mimi's grandma....I miss those simple times, and it sucks I can't experience it one more time before I leave(unless I miraculously discover a couple of bucks so I can go away for the 4th of july weekend...)yeah...I'm in a funk mood now that I can't do this with my friends...



No more shallow talk. My friends mean a lot to me, and it hurts me to know that since I moved, we grew apart. But yet, if we hangout, all of those crappy emotions go away. Like,when I called Glo for her bday 2 weeks ago, the laughter and shouting...I felt like I was there..but not there.I have no idea what or how Mimi is, and I do speak to Gloria every now and then, but not so much since usually when I get home I start working out, and pass out and its the same for her. As for Mally and Andrea, we communicate better in person than on the phone/internet. I miss those crazy girls...

I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO REUNITE WITH MY FRIENDS BACK IN NYC!!

Gamer girl reborn?Maybe...

So I recently purchased a Sega Saturn St-Key that enables one to play games from Japan, and I am ONE HAPPY CAMPER RIGHT NOW!! I'am able to play my old crack from back in the day


YEAH DATS RIGHT!! And I SUCK BALLS NOW!!!
I lost the first round I played it on Saturday T____T


I used to like this game, but sadly I got stuck at a certain part and gave up


I also had this game, but I DUNNO WTF it went...but I also got stuck at a certain level and gave up lol.



I also plan to repurchase the dbz game again since my cousin never returned it to me 12years ago under understandable circumstances along with my original ST-Key.


Why stop at Sega Saturn games?! I'm also in the process of wanting to purchase some sega genesis games (particularly The Pirates of Dark Water ) Yeah...something is seriously up with me lending people games and they don't give em back or loose em. *sighs*
I just miss being a gamer girl...I would spend atleast a good 3hours as a kid playing my games non stop!! I was so good, I remember for Pirates of Dark water that I was able to skip levels way before GamesFAQ existed!! And Fighting games were my speciality!!(Well..mainly Bloody Roar & Virtua Fighter). Its amazing how my gamer girl side really died down now when it should've stopped when I was a teenager. I'm late for everything in my life =p


and I really have nothing else to add...yeah...oh wait yes I do!!
I hate weight training!!

kickin it like its 1999(when I found kpop)

Since I'am becoming an old fart whose about to loose her dreams....

I just started remembering when I was a teeanager, who couldn't wait to grow up and make my dreams come true. Emo..I know...does that word still even exist among the youth these days?

This was all brought on due to my friend who auditioned to be the next VJ for MTVK(MTV_Korea). And I'am thinking to myself, "boy, I don't care if you're Korean, I know kpop more than you do! Even though you lived in Korea for 3 years..."
And when I was watching the people who auditioned, I imagined myself in a
"what if.."scenario and I remembered how I first got into Kpop..
I don't remember the day, but I remember it was in the year of 1999 before I started my freshman year of Highschool, so I guess it was around summer time. I was reading one of those teen magazines, possibly seventeen, when I stumbled across a article about this girl who was half korean. She was discussing how her best friend lived in S.Korea who she would visit her every summer, and their favorite band was H.O.T.

This wasn't the photo..and since these young whippersnappers dunno what H.O.T is, its hard to find the exact image but it was from their "WE ARE THE FUTURE" era
when I saw their photo all I thought was
"OMG.................THEY'RE HOT!! THEY LOOK LIKE VISUAL KEI ROCKERS!! I MUST FIND OUT HOW THEY SOUND!!" <--was already into Jpop/Jrock =)
So I went on AOL (for you youngins out there..be happy 56k dial up is a thing of the past) and was able to download mvs and mp3s of some of their songs. I downloaded
"Free to fly"
"we are the future" mv
"Candy" mv
"Happiness" mp3
yeah I was pretty much hooked!!
I then found out that you can get korean music cds in Flushing, Queens and got my parents to drive me to the store. I was so...not nervous, asking the Korean lady at the cd shop if she had a H.O.T CD (I pronounced them as HOT) lol, and she was like
"....you know..they sing in Korean right"
"yeah, I like them"
"oh Okay.."
and her husband told me they had a concert tape too and I was like
"MOMMY, can I buy it?!"
So I bought their 4th album "I Yah" as well as their concert video from Seoul 1999!
....When I watched their concert, I didn't give a fuck that I didn't understand what they were saying, I was just so happy to see them perform...and make believe I was there. When I started High School, I plastered my locker with H.O.T pictures and this Korean girl next to me was like "YOU KNOW ABOUT H.O.T?!" and we sang "free to fly" while walking home to the train station we never really got to be close friends and she transferred schools the next semester
Sadly the group disbanded 2 years after I discovered them, and even though that seems short, they been around since 1996 *3 years late...*
But H.O.T was my first acknowledged KPOP group that I was a big stan for....and everytime I think of them, I remember a time when my life wasn't as crazy/boring/uneventful/hard as I thought it was...

I even felt more "I'am so special" with Kpop because..like most American kids..I first heard Seo Taiji when I was 9 years old due to the movie "American Ninja's Kick back". Hollywood's ignorant ass can't tell the difference between the various Asian ethnic groups, so when the three heroes were driving down Tokyo, Seo Taiji "Nan Arayo" was playing in the background. I later discovered in 2005 that the song was Korean XD.
Even though nothing could replace H.O.T
I got into Shinhwa,S.E.S, CLEO, TAKE, Click-B, G.O.D, Sech kies, Seo Taiji,and DBSK*
*Ironically with DBSK I also became a fan of them 2 years before they broke up and they were around since 2005.....well they were the next H.O.T..so thats the irony of my life.
Its hard to still have a love of Kpop now a days since the groups keep getting younger, and I'am getting older *sighs*. Not to mention I don't feel Kpop is this secret "Omg you know about kpop!? Lets be friends! kinda world it used to be since its becoming more mainstream...well not that mainstream, but sorta like..not surprising if someone knows a Korean pop artist in the world.
It sucks being an ajumma...but yeah...the Kpop era from 1990-2003 will always have a special place in my heart...
All I needed was my kpop, and playing counter strike at a PC bang in flushing to feel I was part of their world.