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Nagasaki Fashion edition

Well, looks like I had no time (well I did...but my bf's laptop was slow as hell) to update this blog with my fashion days when I went to Japan.
But now here are pics, sadly not full outfits since I didn't have a full mirror and I wasn't going to take pics of myself in public restrooms...


so here's most of my attire (All of my clothes came from either Wet Seal/Shasa/Body Central/ and Macy's)

Days 1-3 my bf's clothes due to not having my suitcase lol. Two wifebeaters with sweats.Lol kinda looks like the style from "Soul Sister"


Day 4
(Black vest, white fluffy shirt, with a black jumper suit underneath)


Day 4 revised
(black vest/white tank top/black jumper suit underneath with hat)


Day 5(White shirt, blue short jumper suit)


Day 6 White tank top/Black mesh dolman top/blue jeans


Day 8. yellow short sleeve peasant top, blue sailor pants




Day 7 supermarket wear: cut up sweat shirt, white tank top, grey sweats.

no make up or contacts, wee!!

yeah..this post sucks, but I decided when I go back to Japan, I will sitll be fashion conscious. So here we go fall! and back to loosing weight ( I gained 6lbs boo..)

training woes...

I haven't seen my trainer since last Thursday T_________T
He kept cancelling on us and to make a long story short: We'll give him one more chance to fuck up, and after that..I want the money for the classes I didn't take back!!

I eat salad so got damn much...I think my body would go into shock if I skipped it for one day. I am getting alil bored of my diet, and want to eat other food
( I MISS RICE!! I MISS ASIAN FOOD!! I MISS WEST INDIAN FOOD!!)
I thought there was a God when I got hooked on these hidden food bombs right here!

Vietnamese Spring rolls!! From Kroger's...
Sadly these were made with rice noddles and not bean noddles....so its fattening for me cause rice is my mortal enemey. Anyways....I hope I can get to the gym today. My trainer has yet to txt me back the code to get into the gym through the back instead of the front. NO LUCK SO FAR! Luckilly my co-worker from my job also lives at the same apartment, so Ima ask her instead. Time to do some squats and lower legs workout! Than tomorrow, upper body...Rhianna body...I CAN DO THIS!!

Good news!!

First,I have to give a shout out to my one of my dear friends, Glo, who will be stuyding abroad in Seoul, Korea for a year!!I don't want to get into my friends whole life story, but long story short:It has always been her dream to go to Korea...so I'm happy that she finally gets a chance to do so, and I hope this experience for her is rewarding in many ways possible towards her future. Hopefully I can visit her before she leaves as well as see her in Korea!! Now if only we can develop a youtube channel when we bitch about life ...thats my ultimate dream for my friend and I

Now...second good news!!
My boyfriend said *Onechan wants to visit America in September with him =)
Onechan is what my boyfriend's mom told me to call her lol
I really hope she comes! I miss her so much!!!! I haven't seen her since the summer of 2008=(. Sadly I can't really communicate with her due to a language barrier, but she would still talk to me in Japanese regardless, and it did help my comprehension greatly. She also reminded me somewhat of my mom..they're both funny and don't give a damn about what other people think. I'am truly grateful that my boyfriend's mother accepts me even though we can't communicate much. I told my mother about this and she said she'd be more than happy to let Hisao's mother stay with us...which has me debating my trip to Japan in August.

Lately I've been thinking...why go visit Nagasaki in August when I'm Japan bound in October(2 months later...). True,my bf planned to pay for my ticket so it wouldn't cost me a thing, but since I really want to see onechan and want her to meet my family, I feel its best my boyfriend use that money to purchase a ticket for his mother instead..and we just wait to see one another in September. This would also enable me to travel to Nyc in time to see Gloria before she leaves. I know, how horrible of a person I am to ditch my bf in hopes I can go to Nyc for a vacation to see my family and friends XD...but it does make more sense to me, and I yet to find a way to explain that to him. *sighs* I don't want him to feel bad, but it is time we start acted like adults and make wise decisions...
Yes, I want to see my boyfriend....
the last time we saw each other was last September of 2010...
but the way I see it....we're going to see each other for a month, and than we leave together for Japan to finally be together in the same damn country/city...
I won't see my friends or family for a long time, hell I haven't seen them since I left nyc...
So I think in the end, its all fair for me to just forget my trip to Japan for the summer, go to nyc, and get ready for my bf to spend time with me for a month.
It sucks, but I really want to see onechan and let her have a nice vacation in America. I think she would be very happy if her son paid for her to go to travel...so guess we're going to have an adult talk very soon =X

In other news with my workout...My trainer really knows how to abuse me, but alas!!
MY JIGGLY LEGS AREN'T JIGGLING MUCH ANYMORE!! YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Sadly I am now walking like an old lady...*sighs* I don't know how I can face him on Saturday, but I'll do my best!!!
BIKINI BODY!! I FEEL YOU!!

Workout round 4!!

So I met up with my personal trainer the other day to do some weight training.
I feel like like I'm not doing a lot when I'm on the Elliptical trainer which is silly since it does more for your body oppose to running on a treadmill. In fact, I feel my best days is when I have to jog/run up and down the stairs. But omg the weight training!! My trainer believes I can bench 10 lbs+ but its so hard to do 3 sets of 15,20,35lbs!!
My current weight now is 167*sniff* I was 166 last week, but I was on some f*cked up killer diet before, so now that I'am somewhat back to eating normally, this fluctuating weight was un-avoidable. I feel that I should be meeting my trainer more than 2x a week since I paid to meet him 3x, but ehh mis-communication crap. However, my mother and I also took it upon ourselves to workout when we don't see him, so it sort of balances out.
I just hope to be 150 by July...come on weight...MELT OFF!!! I already see definition in my arms though!! At this rate they'll be more defined than my boyfriends...
Which is amazing since my bf's arms are bigger than mine. Sometimes I see his muscles when he flexes unitentionally....I miss him *sighs*
Semi-good news though? He's starting to workout again, not because I asked him too...
he said its actually good for his hernia if he does crunches. So yeah for hernia? hehehe

*sighs* I don't want to buy a new phone...

But I have no choice, my Samsung behold from 2009 has recently died on me. Okay, technically it didn't die, it still works, but my touch screen is broken, and thats how the phone works!! I could take it to get it fixed, but I am sorta itching for a new phone.
I was eyeing the LG Lollipop phone that T-mobile has, and with another 2year contract its $19.99, but I dunno if I there are hidden costs involved plus I am leaving the states by October, so its moot to get another contract. They also no longer have the color I want, blue, but I found it on ebay for $73.00!! So end result? I bought the blue LG DLite a.k.a Lollipop


I really didn't want to buy a new phone since I will be moving to Japan soon...but ugh...Damn MONEY!!! Plus I do need to txt and contact people...=/

I should have this phone by Monday, which means I must download the Big Bang *Lollipop* song so it can be my ringtone lol



Now I regret not getting it in pink..but its okay, when I go to Japan and sign up for Docomo..I can have all the cute pink phones I want!! Besides...I owned like 3 pink phones already! First the pink vodaphone 703, than the Sharp 906i, and the Behold...time to switch it up!! Im debating if I should get the F-04C
but after my last touch screen mishap...dunno =/ (BUT YOU CAN DO PURIKURA ON THESE PHONES!!)
Also, I got one of my wigs, Abby, but sadly this version of their 27/613 looks dull as hell! Looks sorta similar to champagne's so Ima order her in a *Blair later on.
*sighs* its hard shopping for wigs =p

I also worked out again today with my trainer...my arms are still hurting from my last weight training...I hate this, but love it just the same. Masochist B! Thats me!. I seriously got to start practicing my Japanese again with Hisao, its the only way so far he'd also workout with me>(. I'am going to study so hard, he'd be able to carry me for 3 hours straight lol!!!
AND NEXT STOP?! GETTING HIM BACK INTO KARATE!!

Gamer girl reborn?Maybe...

So I recently purchased a Sega Saturn St-Key that enables one to play games from Japan, and I am ONE HAPPY CAMPER RIGHT NOW!! I'am able to play my old crack from back in the day


YEAH DATS RIGHT!! And I SUCK BALLS NOW!!!
I lost the first round I played it on Saturday T____T


I used to like this game, but sadly I got stuck at a certain part and gave up


I also had this game, but I DUNNO WTF it went...but I also got stuck at a certain level and gave up lol.



I also plan to repurchase the dbz game again since my cousin never returned it to me 12years ago under understandable circumstances along with my original ST-Key.


Why stop at Sega Saturn games?! I'm also in the process of wanting to purchase some sega genesis games (particularly The Pirates of Dark Water ) Yeah...something is seriously up with me lending people games and they don't give em back or loose em. *sighs*
I just miss being a gamer girl...I would spend atleast a good 3hours as a kid playing my games non stop!! I was so good, I remember for Pirates of Dark water that I was able to skip levels way before GamesFAQ existed!! And Fighting games were my speciality!!(Well..mainly Bloody Roar & Virtua Fighter). Its amazing how my gamer girl side really died down now when it should've stopped when I was a teenager. I'm late for everything in my life =p


and I really have nothing else to add...yeah...oh wait yes I do!!
I hate weight training!!

KILL ME! KILL ME NOW!!

I worked out again today with my personal trainer.
Glad to say I didn't throw up!! However, I got a charlie horse which made me forget about my oncoming nausea, and the padding in my bra fell out (and my personal trainer saw that happen!!)
Ugh, to be honest, I feel I am every personal trainer's dream!
I hardly complain, and I'm very willing to push myself to the limit.
So far I'am back down to 166(I should be 160 by next week woo hoo!!)

and just a couple of days till I can buy wigs and shoes again!!!

I'am a masochist

I had my first workout with my trainer today....
and as history has shown me, I threw up after my workout...*sighs*
This doesn't make sense!! Last time I threw up after a workout with a personal trainer, I didn't eat before our session. This time however? I ate an hour before, and I threw up again!! I was so sick, I didn't even care about my hair...
(and I touched dog poo!! Ugh!! Why don't the people at this apartment complex curb their fuckin dogs?!)

So it turns out the reasons for me throwing up is as follows:
I ate a heavy meal before working out,
I pushed myself too hard,
My temp became too high,
Not breathing properly,

Either way, the puking helped me drop those 3 pounds I acquired!! I haven't been 168lbs for a week now!! My trainer said I should be able to drop 5 lbs in one week, and after that it'll be slower, so don't be alarmed. My mom believes I can loose 10.
Working out with my mom is fun, because I get to see her suffer>D
But seriously, I was pushing myself not only for me, but I want my mother to have a drive to workout too. I want her to be healthier!! So I would keep patting her on the back to keep going!! She also told me to not let my trainer kill me, but I feel I need this abuse! I just hope he gets me to do squats, I need to lift up what little ass I have lol.
I can't wait to surprise my bf with my new body!!
scratch that I can't wait to tell my bf how I hurled buckets of puke to get a body I can brag about, so his friends can see how ULTRA sexy I am, and make him do the same shit when I go to Japan!! HERE WE GO SIX PACK/KARATE LOVIN BF!!

Superficial much? but ofcourse

DAMN WIGS!!

I just purchased 3 wigs from the Champagne collection, and I am officially dissapointed!!
Quality wise, they're nice and silky, but I HATE..HATE THE COLORS!! They look so dull for a 27/30/33 & 27/30/613 color blend. Nothing about them screams strawberry blond + auburn!! They look like a plain ole brown wig >(. SO I decided I'am going to sell each one of them on ebay for 30 ($9.00) for shipping which I think is a good deal, so hopefully I can get 117 for these babies!! I just wonder how I can do that since I did open em and tried them on..*and I ripped off the tag...* but I still have them *sighs*
This should be fun...
but in all honesty, I do want to stop buying wigs, its like..I'am becoming a wig hoarder, and sadly I don't really wear my wigs much!! =/
Its just, I don't really like the colors I got....
I think dark colors suck now, and I like vibrant colors, but not too bright...
and with most wig brands, its hard to find a good color that fits!! Not to mention some sites have disorted colorson their display, so when you get the wig you wanted like I did, the color is TOTALLY DIFFERENT!
(Abby in a 27/613, Star in a 1B/33/130 or a 33/32/240, Romance in a 1b/33, Ocean 812 & 27/30 again, and LA girl in a 27/30 & FS4327)
I only plan to buy 6 more wigs between now and July, and than I am done...FOREVER!!
(I assume I will be done because by next year, my natural hair will be longer, bigger,and I'd care to rock that more than my various styles of wigs)

I also recently purchased a personal trainer to work my fat ass out. Its $900 (T______T)
But, what was nice of him was to include my mother in my plan. So we start on Monday, which means I have two days to pig out!! I've been pigging out since Saturday, okay thats a lie. I have been eating Junk food!! I had Chinese food, than whataburger, Chick-fil-a. Today I was thinking of eating Chinese food again, but Ima save that for tomorrow and just make my romelette with some dumplings and possibly fries. I'am also just eating one time a day, so not healthy I know....
I plan to explain to my trainer on Monday that my body is weird...
IT hates rice( but I love rice)
and retains water weight like a bitch!!

I told him I want to get a body like Rhianna by July,


I just want a smaller waist,arms, and toned up legs!! Small tummy is a plus, but I dun mind sporting an egyptian pouch*