Money makes the world go round(and here we go♫)

So I spoke to my accountant(mumsy) and it turns out I now have a $1500 spending limit on crap I want to spend on m'self in regards to saving up money for Japan.
So what does that mean?
I have to really think hard on what I want, and only purchase stuff I need...
I def need a laptop, so..
HP Garden dreams is a must but since I have a walmart credit card, I don't have to worry about paying it all in one sweep
Manga Debut 4: I can purchase later on....along with the wacom bamboo tablet before I leave.But debating if I should put this on my walmart credit card or bestbuy..
The circle lens I ordered The Geo nudy goldenblue ones from honeycolor.com still show they're being processed. Its been a week since I ordered them, sooo...if I don't hear anything by next week. PAYPAL DISPUTE!! And I'll just fedex them from Candylens.com. I should've learned from my old yukata dispute that express shipping with tracking is the best way to go for international stuff...le sigh
Clothes
I still didn't loose all the weight I wanted to, and I will start the dunkan diet tomorrow...sOOoooo, I have to wait to see how my body shape changes.

Here's to loosing 15lbs in 45days
2 more wigs..(I decided when I visit this summer, that I will be rocking a color #33 wigs!)
So I will be wearing Miami/Cara/and Scarlett!! But I'd wear miami the first day, and cara or scarlett for date dates*

♥♥


Plane ticket..........NOW THIS IS THE DOOZY! no boyfriend bashing, I promise
My boyfriend recently asked me how we were going to do the ticket thing. The options were A)I pay and he reimbuses me when I get to Japan
B) I have no idea what was plan B..but it did involve him paying for it alltogether...but he doesn't have a credit card....
If I want to go crazy on m'self...I dunno how I can purchase my ticket and buy stuff...I'd be broke till Augustplus I'm waiting to see when my boss would work on the July. She said she'd start working on it next week.Going with my intuition, I feel I will be working the last week of Saturday in July,or my boss could have me do two Saturdays in July making that weekend,I believe I'm off another 6day week. Ugh, as each day goes by, prices go up ($1,733!! LAST TIME IT WAS AROUND $1,650!)(T_____T) DAMMIT! I can go cheaper if I take a late flight, but I'd arrive in Japan on a Monday if I left on a Saturday(WTF!!??). I'm willing to go the cheap route if I can get that Friday off as well, but I dunno yet. Is there a silver lining in my suffering?YES! I can now spend more than 8days in Japan cause of my trip to NYC has been pushed back to September, but I'm sad to say I don't think I can see my friend Glo before she leaves for S.Korea. My mom doesn't want to drive up to for 5days.....ugh. So I have to try and arrange a date to visit her in Korea =(. I really wanted to hangout with my high school friends again together as a group....just hanging at mimi's house, ordering Japanese food from Saji's near Columbia University where they used Adobo from Goya in their seasoning!!Or atleast it tasted like they did whenever I ordered their katsudon!! And we'd just joke around scaring the hell out of Mimi's grandma....I miss those simple times, and it sucks I can't experience it one more time before I leave(unless I miraculously discover a couple of bucks so I can go away for the 4th of july weekend...)yeah...I'm in a funk mood now that I can't do this with my friends...



No more shallow talk. My friends mean a lot to me, and it hurts me to know that since I moved, we grew apart. But yet, if we hangout, all of those crappy emotions go away. Like,when I called Glo for her bday 2 weeks ago, the laughter and shouting...I felt like I was there..but not there.I have no idea what or how Mimi is, and I do speak to Gloria every now and then, but not so much since usually when I get home I start working out, and pass out and its the same for her. As for Mally and Andrea, we communicate better in person than on the phone/internet. I miss those crazy girls...

I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO REUNITE WITH MY FRIENDS BACK IN NYC!!

Birthday Surprise - Success- & minor random stuff

So my package has finally arrived in Japan!!
he's eating my cookies♥♥♥
and developed horrible stomach pains later resulting in him staying on the toitlet for 6hours...lol just joking

They tried to deliver it on Saturday, but Hisao was at work, so they re-delivered early in the morning on Sunday.
He was really surprised when he saw the note left from the Postman on his door! He tried to trick me saying there were terrorist threats at his post office but I tried to make him believe I didn't send him anything haha.
So he ate my horrible cookies infront of me and was really happy ^___^


now, back to me...
I tried getting a walmart card today and was denied in the store
There are only two reasons this happened:
1)I don't have enough credit cards to show I have good credit
2)The lady at walmart said sometimes chase blocks people from using them as a credit source..
yet I just tried to apply for it online, and I GOT IT!!
WTF?!
I should have my card in 7-10 days, and then I plan to buy my laptop, manga debut 4, and wacom tablet!!

I also decided to buy 3 more circle lens (or two...still iffy about a certain pair)
I was thinking for the longest time about getting violet contact lens...
so I was eyeing the Violet wing series



I think the violet would work well with my 33 color wigs, but then it was a tough fight between the Geo Nudy Series (Golden Blue & Blue)

My main thing is I kinda want the golden blue to still give off a blue feel...
in some pics it looks bluish and other times it looks down right grey/greenish...

If the golden blue can imitate my old fresh look turquoise contacts then I'd be so happy!!

I was also thinking of investing in Jillian Michaels 30day shred since I only have two my sessions with my trainerwhich I never re-scheduled due to a miscommunication mishap. SO far the reviews are really good, but I read it can fuck up your knees =X. I did one of her dvd workous before, and I did notice alil tone up in my legs, but stopped since I got bored doing the same shit over and over...
She claims I can loose 20lbs in 30days..so lets see...at this point, fuck weight, I wanna loose my inches!!!I wanna buy my summer clothes already!!!

Operation Birthday Surprise!!!

So I have already sent my goodie package to Hisao for his Birthday (^___^)
and it cost me $94 to do it...Jesus Christ, its been so long since I sent him stuff to Japan, costs have gone sky high!!!. This was a last minute idea since he keeps harping on wanting a iPaD, PSP, and the Nintendo 3DS. When I asked him if it would be better to send him his gifts, he said he would rather wait for me to come to Japan to bring him stuff oppose to send him a gift. However, I still wanted to be special and send him something!!
so I baked him some chocolate rasberry crumb bars, which was fun..but I messed them up!! They're really tough to eat since I didn't let them cool properly T__T
I also sent him Dr.Pepper soda (6 pack) and two bags of durritos a few of his favortie things. I also said I had a part II gift, but honestly I dunno what else to get him....
He said he's probably going to buy the iPad himself, so maybe a psp on my end?
I feel alil bad since he bought me that necklace from crescent-luna (same one that Jaejoongwore) which was around $300 bucks (^_^;;)
So ehh....What to do.....he's also paying for my plane ticket...argh!! I need another job!! I'm just worried about my budget and my need to be selfish.... I still didn't buy any summer clothes due to the fact I still didn't loose all the weight I wanted to, and yeah...DAMN TRAINER!! he cancelled on us again!!
and then shoes!! Shoes are going to be my biggest concern when I go to Japan, so I should mainly worry about that more than clothes...my shoes from Poetic License..and Garibelle Rocho...*sighs*
sadly, I don't think Zappos ships to Japan T___T, ofcourse I must ask, just like how I found out my beloved Darcy Botanicals ships to there!!

Going back to my wig hoarding...
I was just supposed to get
Gwen
Mel
Uptown Girl
Than Nari (in 2 colors)
But than I FOUND TIFFANY!!!!!



This horrible (cute, volumptuous lace front wig) Tiffany!!! And ofcourse I had to have her in the same color!!! So I would usually get my wigs from Mimi's beauty supply store, but I didn't see that color listed in their stockbut I asked anyways. I found it on another website,ebonyonline, and it was ther last stash for the Tiffany DX2733, but they had it in a DX4733 which when I think about it..is only two shades darker
So I ordered it from ebonyonline, which cost me $4.51 more than mimi's(41.62), and what happens when I check my email at work? Mimi emails me and says they did have the color T___T, and I couldn't cancel my previous order with ebony since they already shipped it..UGH!!! So now, I only have two more wigs left...Nari...and I can only choose two colors....
so its a fight between a regular black colored wig...and a colorful wig, or two colorful wigs....
*sighs* black is just sOooOoo BORING for me hairwise....*pic of me wearing a black bob wig.
I seriously loathe dark colors now, even 4 colors are lame as hell unless they have some serious streaks/highlights in them!! So I think I will get nari in a
33/32/240* Video of Nari in action
(keeping it as dark as possible) and a G8643!!

Then, I'm done!! No more wigs..ever again! I seriously need to start saving up my money so I can purcahse a laptop as well as my other necessities. I'm seriously considering getting another job so I can have spending money...I need to buy things dammit!!!


This weekend I plan to fix my best buy credit card limit so I can purchase Manga Studio debut 4, my tablet, as well as inquire about a laptop since I will need that when I'm in Japan. Best buy's minimum payment for stuff we buy monthly is $10, which I will be able to factor in my master plan, and can continue to pay when I'm in Japan.

I was looking at the Sony VAIO P Series VPC-P111KX/P series, but I'm going to ask them for advice on which one would be the best laptop for using my manga debut 4 program I have a feeling a MAC would be best..but I don't want no damn Mac!! Ima PC girl!!


AND NOW....Pics of Hisao's Bday Surprise and the drawing I did for him



This pic was actually inspired from Nana haha...


The box I put his cookies in

and yeah..thats it♥, hopefully it gets to Japan before his Bday..or atleast a day after...or at all!!

Good news!!

First,I have to give a shout out to my one of my dear friends, Glo, who will be stuyding abroad in Seoul, Korea for a year!!I don't want to get into my friends whole life story, but long story short:It has always been her dream to go to Korea...so I'm happy that she finally gets a chance to do so, and I hope this experience for her is rewarding in many ways possible towards her future. Hopefully I can visit her before she leaves as well as see her in Korea!! Now if only we can develop a youtube channel when we bitch about life ...thats my ultimate dream for my friend and I

Now...second good news!!
My boyfriend said *Onechan wants to visit America in September with him =)
Onechan is what my boyfriend's mom told me to call her lol
I really hope she comes! I miss her so much!!!! I haven't seen her since the summer of 2008=(. Sadly I can't really communicate with her due to a language barrier, but she would still talk to me in Japanese regardless, and it did help my comprehension greatly. She also reminded me somewhat of my mom..they're both funny and don't give a damn about what other people think. I'am truly grateful that my boyfriend's mother accepts me even though we can't communicate much. I told my mother about this and she said she'd be more than happy to let Hisao's mother stay with us...which has me debating my trip to Japan in August.

Lately I've been thinking...why go visit Nagasaki in August when I'm Japan bound in October(2 months later...). True,my bf planned to pay for my ticket so it wouldn't cost me a thing, but since I really want to see onechan and want her to meet my family, I feel its best my boyfriend use that money to purchase a ticket for his mother instead..and we just wait to see one another in September. This would also enable me to travel to Nyc in time to see Gloria before she leaves. I know, how horrible of a person I am to ditch my bf in hopes I can go to Nyc for a vacation to see my family and friends XD...but it does make more sense to me, and I yet to find a way to explain that to him. *sighs* I don't want him to feel bad, but it is time we start acted like adults and make wise decisions...
Yes, I want to see my boyfriend....
the last time we saw each other was last September of 2010...
but the way I see it....we're going to see each other for a month, and than we leave together for Japan to finally be together in the same damn country/city...
I won't see my friends or family for a long time, hell I haven't seen them since I left nyc...
So I think in the end, its all fair for me to just forget my trip to Japan for the summer, go to nyc, and get ready for my bf to spend time with me for a month.
It sucks, but I really want to see onechan and let her have a nice vacation in America. I think she would be very happy if her son paid for her to go to travel...so guess we're going to have an adult talk very soon =X

In other news with my workout...My trainer really knows how to abuse me, but alas!!
MY JIGGLY LEGS AREN'T JIGGLING MUCH ANYMORE!! YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Sadly I am now walking like an old lady...*sighs* I don't know how I can face him on Saturday, but I'll do my best!!!
BIKINI BODY!! I FEEL YOU!!

wow...my bf and I are on some Blasian site again lol

And here I was thinking that we weren't cute enough to even have a mention on this site lol.
Wow..this pic is so old, like 2008 old!! To think its been 3 fuckin years since I been to Japan!! I look so different too(Ironically my bf's current hair style is pretty similar to the picture except he has a strawberry blond streak on his bangs). We need a new pic for the blasian lovers to applaud to! And I plan to deliver this summer...
So far I am getting better with my wig applications and make up!!
Behold, B wearing some nice gyaru inspired clothes + wigs!!






This puricute gotta stop making me look red bone!! lol

I might join tumblr just cause I wanna talk about my love story too ^.^
yeah..we'll see....

And when I showed my bf the pic from that tumblr site he was
saying how I've aged from 2008 to now. He claimed he was joking once I gave him the stink eye and backtrackked like a cockroach, but I realized that I am no longer looking *cute* but am gaining sex appeal!! or to people who don't find me attractive, I went from barf to inside mouth throwup



Mini timeline of my ageing like Keanu Reeves


2005


2006


2007


2008 or 2009


2011 (Present)
Aww...my wasted youth being a tomboy..., but I do feel more comfortable and happy in jeans and a hoodie

iOno whats up with me and that thumb shit though...



And a pic of my bf from 2006 and his current pic for 2011




I feel alil bad when I kinda yelled at his new hair cut. It does actually look nice T__T..and I missed it...BOOOO!

Tramps like us...(Excuse my otaku moment)

So I started reading this manga last year, but stopped because one of the manga sites I went to stopped at Vol.12(but I recently found the rest on mangafox.com, yeah!!!!!). To give a brief summary, the story is about a 28year old journalist named Sumire who broke up with her bf of 5 years because he felt inferior to her both in height and economic status. When she comes home from work, she finds a cardboard box infront of her apartment complex and discovers there's a guy inside, she thinks he's dead at first. She invites him into her apartment and finds out he's a 21 year old dancer with no place to go because he didn't want to sleep with this older gay guy who would've provided him shelter. Sumire decides to allow the young man to stay with her if she agrees to be his pet. The guy agrees to the term and when Sumire asks for his name he says since she's his master she must name him. So Sumire decides to call him Momo since he reminds her of her ex dog due to his curly/wavy hair thats dyed brown with black roots. Sumire warns Momo that he is not to do any sexual stuff to her because he does not possess the three qualities she wants in a man which is "Tall,makes more money than her, and confident" which shoots Momo down because he's 165cm(5'6) and she's 170cm(5'7).

It sounds simple, but thats not the case with the story as Sumire starts to develop feelings for Momo while she finally gets with her ideal man, and Momo also starts to fall in love with Sumire. I felt towards the end, it did become somewhat rushed, which pissed me off...but I guess the mangaka was tired of having this manga run for like 5years when it was only 14 volumes.

The point of mentioning this manga was that I realized...the relationship between Sumire and Momo reminded me so much of the relationship with my boyfriend. No, I didn't find him infront of my apartment complex in a cardboard box homeless, but I did meet him at my cousins apartment which was one floor below me. When I first met Hisao, I didn't think he also lived up to my Three Ideals:
Taller than me
sexy body
Charismatic + Fashionable
okay so its four..
Turns out Hisao was taller than me, he's boadering 5'9, and even though he didn't have a 6pack hollywood body.. he was stronger than me! I found this out when he picked me up for the first time after we were playing ping pong which surprised the hell out of me!!! Just 3 weeks prior to when we hung out, he offered to carry me and I was kept thinking he was too weak to even lift my leg. Like Momo, Hisao comes from a family full of girls and he's the youngest/only boy. In terms of how Sumire treats Momo, I guess I do sometimes treat my boyfriend like a pet. I like doing his hairmore like trying to control it lol, feeding him, as well as give him tips on his fashion sense. I say harsh things to Hisao now and then, tsurunde* as he describes it, but Hisao always responds like Momo in a funny loving way which really makes me happy. Both Sumire and I also like anime and fighting shows( i prefer watching martial arts!) I also realized Hisao's personality is like Momo's! They're both perverts, but generally care about the person they decide to love. Hisao wasn't a ladies man persay, but he did have a lot of *chick friends* before...and he doesn't dance, but he used to do Karate. Also, Momo can't cook, but Hisao can. In terms of age, I'm only 8months older than him even though even though we were born in different years, but he does like to call me old lady every now and then. He's naturally young at heart, and I still haven't gotten over my quater mid-life crisis. Towards the end of the book Sumire and Momo had to become a Long Distance couple which is what I'm currently going through, but if things go right, I will be with Hisao living in Japan in September. So here's hoping everything goes well..


This is us in print..lol

In other news...I lost a pound!! WTF A POUND?! I think I found the trick though, I have to power walk instead of running! So I will now power walk in the morning and at night on my off days!! I CAN DO THIS!!

you make me feel like I'am living a teenage dream

So for a couple of days I have been thinking about my life and my relationship.
I have been dating my boyfriend since 9/29/2006=4 years. We were both 20 at the time when we first met and at first I didn't want to get together with him. I knew our close distance relationship was temporary and he'd be back in Japan by the summer. Plus he didn't seem that taller than me(but he was), didn't have that cool hair/fashion sense, and didn't speak much English. Technically speaking we weren't exactly that close in proximity. He was in New Paltz, NY and I was in the Bronx. Since we didn't have a car, that was 1hr30mins away + 30$ a bus ride to see one another every other weekend. I also felt that he would loose interest in me since we were from two different cultures and was just going to use me for his American let loose adventures. However, that wasn't the case for I was being pessimistic and my boyfriend was nothing but true with his intentions to be my boyfriend. I remember when I spent his birthday with him, he opened up to me about our relationship. He said he was so happy to be with me but he wondered if maybe there was a better guy for me because he knew due to his financial situation that this wouldn't be easy for me. For 4 years we tried to end this distance the best we could..He took two years out of school to save up money and continue his education here in the states to no avail. He finally gave up in March of 2009 informing me it was best he finished his education in Japan. I then decided I would try to go to Japan to get a job with no progress. So during this two year fail and try process we visited each other a total of 6 times, I traveling to Japan 2 times in 2008 and my boyfriend coming to America. During this time I guess one can say I grew very pessimistic about this distance conquering. I felt at this point the only way to end it was through marriage which was proposed by my boyfriend, but I knew I wasn't mature enough yet to handle marriage and I didn't want this to be the grounds on why I would do it. I never stopped loving my boyfriend, even though I know we both contemplated somewhere in our thoughts if this relationship should end. I know we wanted to prove to the outside world that an LDR could work,but our end date kept getting delayed.
My mother also started to get on my nerves somewhat...
She kept asking me what did I intend to do with my relationship with my boyfriend and what did he plan to do with me. I kept saying we are winging it here since we kept trying for two years to be closer together but it was very hard since immigration is a bitch. The last time she saw my boyfriend she asked him these very exact questions which really got him shaken up. He thought my mother didn't like him anymore because of his response which didn't seem to comfort my mother at all, not to mention a major language barrier.

Then comes my mentor...Ms. Linda a.k.a Linda Obachan..
She was my mother's childhood friend growing up who I met before when she first visited us back in 2009. She was the lady I heard about when I got into Japanese culture who my mother said got married to a Japanese guy, had a daughter, and moved to Japan to live there. I asked my mother if I could ever visit her but she said she lost her number and hasn't been in contact >(. They re-connected after Linda Obachan moved back to the states last year and came to visit my mom at our new house. We didn't speak much the first time she came, we just spoke briefly about my boyfriend and she told me about her life in Japan alittle bit but mainly spoke of her life in India doing Yoga. When she came back to visit again this year, she asked to speak to me one on one in her room...but I wasn't prepared for how in depth she was going to be. She started talking about my goals in life and particularly about my relationship with my boyfriend. She was really deep, I found I didn't have to talk much since she was really giving me advice on all of the things that were bothering me internally. I expressed to her that I felt my boyfriend had plans but didn't know how to act on them and would just spit them out like the air he breathed without doing enough research or showing me he was dead on to achieve them, and that's what had me worried. Linda Obachan explained since my boyfriend is from Kyushu, particularly Kagoshima, that they are not the kind of people who plan everything in detail, but go about life like the tide of the sea. However, this was not an excuse to demand what I wanted out of the relationship! She also told me if I am to live in Japan, I am not to be Japanese.Yeah don't be a weaboo people! She said just when you think you got the Japanese culture down, they'd bring up a new rule to make you realize your not. She even said that when she speaks Japanese she doesn't use a Japanese accent because people don't pay to see someone imitate being Japanese in her line of work, but to see an American person speaking Japanese. Linda obachan also said due to our family situation that Hisao and I are not an ideal match. Traditional Japanese culture in terms of family is that the first son must be responsible for his parents when they get older which my boyfriend is. I, being the only child is usually never married off to the first son. Not to mention both of our families do not live in the same country nor speak the same language, eliminating the chance of relocating our families to be closer in proximity. So she said be prepared if something happens to my boyfriends older sisters who agreed to take over his duties as the only son for we we might have to relocate to be with his mother. Linda obachan kept repeating over and over to me that this is my time to shine and sometimes the person you fall in love with when you're 20 isn't the person you marry. She didn't say this to say she didn't approve of us but that she wanted me to realize I deserve the best so don't settle. Linda obachan's words were just what I needed...I really felt I had no one to talk to about how I felt,and who better then to hear it from someone whose been what I was going through?

Surprisingly since my boyfriend knew Linda Obachan was in town, he wanted to also speak to her. This is where my boyfriend has super psychic skills, or I didn't get his mixi message the day before when I was talking to Ms. Linda, but he also had concerns which he felt she could best answer. I was abit scared to alert Ms. Linda since she just spoken to me, and I didn't want her to think I spoke to him so quickly about what transpired. But she also agreed to talk to my boyfriend and yeah...he got the talk too. My boyfriend said I couldn't be present but told me he just wanted to get her advice due to the situation that happened with my mom back in September. I thought she would just give him a mini advice speech since she spoke to be the night before and she wanted me to speak to him about it, but she didn't. She told my boyfriend that he basically had to man up! She said even though him being a hard worker was admirable, it wasn't enough if he kept working hard to survive for his goals and he'd have to earn my familiy's respect. Linda obachan told me that my boyfriend was a sweet,nice, and loveable person who even though she spoke to for 30minutes he won her over and she was rooting for us, but she still told me to keep an open mind but she hopes my boyfriend would start to grow up.

When I spoke to my boyfriend he apologized for everything, and got alil misty eyed. I didn't think he was about to cry and I feel pretty bad now that I had a disgusting tone when I said "OMG your not crying are you? (T_T)". My boyfriend said from that day on that he was going to be more of a man in the relationship. He said he was paying for my flight ticket to see him in march,he would apply for a green card or an h3 visa, will try to help me find work in Japan if I am unable to get into JET/Interac, and he will open up a restaurant once he got our future kids through school.

Growing up sucks!!
Let me re-write that once again: GROWING UP SUCKS!!! Because it seems you have to kill off your childhood self in order to become an adult. I guess thats what my boyfriend and I loved about our relationship is that we both were able to act like we weren't growing up. I felt we both satisfied our young adult fantasies about love and romance. But I understand that its time to stop living in la la land and grow up. We can still make each other feel young and happy with the love that we share, but also we must welcome stability into it as well. Because my boyfriend is the boy that I fell in love with when I was 20, and is the man I want to marry as an adult♥
So its time to seriously start building our future together.