♫Wedding bells are in the air♫

In honor of Prince William getting married to Kate, the new Duchess of Cambridge , I started thinking about my very own wedding dress, and I instantly fell in love with this dress from Lena Fuji as well as two other ones.






2nd dress by Scena D'uno



And traditional style wedding kimono





I don't know when I want to get married believe it or not, hopefully when my boyfriend and I are financially stable we can do so, but I do want to buy my dresses ASAP!! XD I also don't know if I should mix it up between having a Japanese and West Indian wedding...or just stick to a western one. I feel weird wearing a wedding kimono....
When I think about it, West Indians don't really have wedding traditions...
Well okay, thats a lie
We must have a black cake!! For example, when my mom got married they had a normal cake and a Black cake, and when my uncle got married our family friend Dorothy made a Black cake for the newly weds.
Also, we must have dancing!!! This clashes with my boyfriend's wedding traditions
(In Japanese weddings..they don't dance) But we WEST INDIANS LOVE DANCING!!

This is a great example of a West Indian reception!! And no I not Hatian!! But they playing soca lol so its all good

lol...so yeah, dancing is eminent!!
Hmm, its fun to dream about my wedding...I just wish I had more people to invite =/

*sighs* I don't want to buy a new phone...

But I have no choice, my Samsung behold from 2009 has recently died on me. Okay, technically it didn't die, it still works, but my touch screen is broken, and thats how the phone works!! I could take it to get it fixed, but I am sorta itching for a new phone.
I was eyeing the LG Lollipop phone that T-mobile has, and with another 2year contract its $19.99, but I dunno if I there are hidden costs involved plus I am leaving the states by October, so its moot to get another contract. They also no longer have the color I want, blue, but I found it on ebay for $73.00!! So end result? I bought the blue LG DLite a.k.a Lollipop


I really didn't want to buy a new phone since I will be moving to Japan soon...but ugh...Damn MONEY!!! Plus I do need to txt and contact people...=/

I should have this phone by Monday, which means I must download the Big Bang *Lollipop* song so it can be my ringtone lol



Now I regret not getting it in pink..but its okay, when I go to Japan and sign up for Docomo..I can have all the cute pink phones I want!! Besides...I owned like 3 pink phones already! First the pink vodaphone 703, than the Sharp 906i, and the Behold...time to switch it up!! Im debating if I should get the F-04C
but after my last touch screen mishap...dunno =/ (BUT YOU CAN DO PURIKURA ON THESE PHONES!!)
Also, I got one of my wigs, Abby, but sadly this version of their 27/613 looks dull as hell! Looks sorta similar to champagne's so Ima order her in a *Blair later on.
*sighs* its hard shopping for wigs =p

I also worked out again today with my trainer...my arms are still hurting from my last weight training...I hate this, but love it just the same. Masochist B! Thats me!. I seriously got to start practicing my Japanese again with Hisao, its the only way so far he'd also workout with me>(. I'am going to study so hard, he'd be able to carry me for 3 hours straight lol!!!
AND NEXT STOP?! GETTING HIM BACK INTO KARATE!!

Gamer girl reborn?Maybe...

So I recently purchased a Sega Saturn St-Key that enables one to play games from Japan, and I am ONE HAPPY CAMPER RIGHT NOW!! I'am able to play my old crack from back in the day


YEAH DATS RIGHT!! And I SUCK BALLS NOW!!!
I lost the first round I played it on Saturday T____T


I used to like this game, but sadly I got stuck at a certain part and gave up


I also had this game, but I DUNNO WTF it went...but I also got stuck at a certain level and gave up lol.



I also plan to repurchase the dbz game again since my cousin never returned it to me 12years ago under understandable circumstances along with my original ST-Key.


Why stop at Sega Saturn games?! I'm also in the process of wanting to purchase some sega genesis games (particularly The Pirates of Dark Water ) Yeah...something is seriously up with me lending people games and they don't give em back or loose em. *sighs*
I just miss being a gamer girl...I would spend atleast a good 3hours as a kid playing my games non stop!! I was so good, I remember for Pirates of Dark water that I was able to skip levels way before GamesFAQ existed!! And Fighting games were my speciality!!(Well..mainly Bloody Roar & Virtua Fighter). Its amazing how my gamer girl side really died down now when it should've stopped when I was a teenager. I'm late for everything in my life =p


and I really have nothing else to add...yeah...oh wait yes I do!!
I hate weight training!!

wow...my bf and I are on some Blasian site again lol

And here I was thinking that we weren't cute enough to even have a mention on this site lol.
Wow..this pic is so old, like 2008 old!! To think its been 3 fuckin years since I been to Japan!! I look so different too(Ironically my bf's current hair style is pretty similar to the picture except he has a strawberry blond streak on his bangs). We need a new pic for the blasian lovers to applaud to! And I plan to deliver this summer...
So far I am getting better with my wig applications and make up!!
Behold, B wearing some nice gyaru inspired clothes + wigs!!






This puricute gotta stop making me look red bone!! lol

I might join tumblr just cause I wanna talk about my love story too ^.^
yeah..we'll see....

And when I showed my bf the pic from that tumblr site he was
saying how I've aged from 2008 to now. He claimed he was joking once I gave him the stink eye and backtrackked like a cockroach, but I realized that I am no longer looking *cute* but am gaining sex appeal!! or to people who don't find me attractive, I went from barf to inside mouth throwup



Mini timeline of my ageing like Keanu Reeves


2005


2006


2007


2008 or 2009


2011 (Present)
Aww...my wasted youth being a tomboy..., but I do feel more comfortable and happy in jeans and a hoodie

iOno whats up with me and that thumb shit though...



And a pic of my bf from 2006 and his current pic for 2011




I feel alil bad when I kinda yelled at his new hair cut. It does actually look nice T__T..and I missed it...BOOOO!

I'm not ready for summer....(but I still ♥ work)

The kids are getting antsy/restless and I'm ready to throw them back into school!!
Yesterday was the busiest day I have had this year so far, and sadly...it won't be the last, and it started out as such a great day too.
One of my favorite families for story time showed up, which means I got to see cute lil aidan, his big sisters, and the new lil addition who is ready to talk even though she's just 3 months old. A day care also showed up at the storytime today. Now I had no issues with a day care coming because its true our library doesn't advertise when day cares can come. However, I explained to the daycare teacher that their day to come is on Thursdays and the day care children can not get craft projects after the programs since they came today because we didn't make enough. This is the rule, not mine, so yeah, its best to come on Thursday so they don't feel left out when the regular patron kids are doing arts and crafts and you're lining them up to leave. So what does this lady do?! She sends her day care kids up to the stage to get crafts, and did I have enough?! NO!
So I had to run back to the office to make some more!!
I just couldn't shoo the children away, thats not my in my character, but if she tries to pull this crap again, I'm standing my ground!! Then we all did the bunny hop which was so much fun!! Aidan originally wanted to stand next to me and do it, but he ran back to mommy instead =(. Then while I was cleaning up, I was speaking with my other lil fave, Lydia. She's adorable in the sense that she's one of the many kids who wants to act grown up around me. So she started telling me a lot of stuff about her mom that she shouldn't have, lol...but it was cute...and then she was like "next year, I'm going to rodeo and I was wondering if you wanted to come with my family and I, can you go?"
This was the part where I felt sad and made me remember something I've been pondering in the back of my head. Next year, I won't be here....
Like a horrible adult, I told her I would be going to Rodeo next year too, so I would make sure to see her there...but I know I won't be in America *sighs*

The rest of the day I want to forget(running children, mothers who are too tired to discipline their children..yadda yadda yadda).

Then there was this young tween who likes talking to me about anime and wants to learn Japanese.
She really reminds me of a younger version of myself.......nostagilia...
I don't know if she'll go down the same path as me, but in a sense, I want to be a mentor to her and make sure to let her know the roads she can take so she doesn't end up like me,lamenting my crushed dreams. I mean, my teenage years were awesome as they could be, but I still wish I had the chances like my cousin to study abroad in Japan both in H.S and college. After that, she's on her own (^___^)\.


And I am now down to 165lbs!!(okay today I weighed 167, I would've been 166 if I woke up alil later...damn cake!!) I need to seriously prevent my mom from buying cake!! Cake is the culprit in my fluctuating weight!! But since I meet with my personal trainer tomorrow, it should go down...very quikly.

Just two more days till I can wig shop again!! YEAH!!
And my boyfriend noticed my skin is getting smoother!!

Thank you
St.Ives Apricot scrub
clearasil acne marks wash and mask &pore unclogging pads
up & up™ Action Moisturizer

They really toned down that stress zit I had on the right side of my face. Its still kinda there, but should be gone by next week.


Later day update://
WILL THIS WOMAN CONTROL HER KIDS!! SILENCIO!!! HAY DIOS MIA! baje su voz!! CONYO!

KILL ME! KILL ME NOW!!

I worked out again today with my personal trainer.
Glad to say I didn't throw up!! However, I got a charlie horse which made me forget about my oncoming nausea, and the padding in my bra fell out (and my personal trainer saw that happen!!)
Ugh, to be honest, I feel I am every personal trainer's dream!
I hardly complain, and I'm very willing to push myself to the limit.
So far I'am back down to 166(I should be 160 by next week woo hoo!!)

and just a couple of days till I can buy wigs and shoes again!!!

I'am a masochist

I had my first workout with my trainer today....
and as history has shown me, I threw up after my workout...*sighs*
This doesn't make sense!! Last time I threw up after a workout with a personal trainer, I didn't eat before our session. This time however? I ate an hour before, and I threw up again!! I was so sick, I didn't even care about my hair...
(and I touched dog poo!! Ugh!! Why don't the people at this apartment complex curb their fuckin dogs?!)

So it turns out the reasons for me throwing up is as follows:
I ate a heavy meal before working out,
I pushed myself too hard,
My temp became too high,
Not breathing properly,

Either way, the puking helped me drop those 3 pounds I acquired!! I haven't been 168lbs for a week now!! My trainer said I should be able to drop 5 lbs in one week, and after that it'll be slower, so don't be alarmed. My mom believes I can loose 10.
Working out with my mom is fun, because I get to see her suffer>D
But seriously, I was pushing myself not only for me, but I want my mother to have a drive to workout too. I want her to be healthier!! So I would keep patting her on the back to keep going!! She also told me to not let my trainer kill me, but I feel I need this abuse! I just hope he gets me to do squats, I need to lift up what little ass I have lol.
I can't wait to surprise my bf with my new body!!
scratch that I can't wait to tell my bf how I hurled buckets of puke to get a body I can brag about, so his friends can see how ULTRA sexy I am, and make him do the same shit when I go to Japan!! HERE WE GO SIX PACK/KARATE LOVIN BF!!

Superficial much? but ofcourse

DAMN WIGS!!

I just purchased 3 wigs from the Champagne collection, and I am officially dissapointed!!
Quality wise, they're nice and silky, but I HATE..HATE THE COLORS!! They look so dull for a 27/30/33 & 27/30/613 color blend. Nothing about them screams strawberry blond + auburn!! They look like a plain ole brown wig >(. SO I decided I'am going to sell each one of them on ebay for 30 ($9.00) for shipping which I think is a good deal, so hopefully I can get 117 for these babies!! I just wonder how I can do that since I did open em and tried them on..*and I ripped off the tag...* but I still have them *sighs*
This should be fun...
but in all honesty, I do want to stop buying wigs, its like..I'am becoming a wig hoarder, and sadly I don't really wear my wigs much!! =/
Its just, I don't really like the colors I got....
I think dark colors suck now, and I like vibrant colors, but not too bright...
and with most wig brands, its hard to find a good color that fits!! Not to mention some sites have disorted colorson their display, so when you get the wig you wanted like I did, the color is TOTALLY DIFFERENT!
(Abby in a 27/613, Star in a 1B/33/130 or a 33/32/240, Romance in a 1b/33, Ocean 812 & 27/30 again, and LA girl in a 27/30 & FS4327)
I only plan to buy 6 more wigs between now and July, and than I am done...FOREVER!!
(I assume I will be done because by next year, my natural hair will be longer, bigger,and I'd care to rock that more than my various styles of wigs)

I also recently purchased a personal trainer to work my fat ass out. Its $900 (T______T)
But, what was nice of him was to include my mother in my plan. So we start on Monday, which means I have two days to pig out!! I've been pigging out since Saturday, okay thats a lie. I have been eating Junk food!! I had Chinese food, than whataburger, Chick-fil-a. Today I was thinking of eating Chinese food again, but Ima save that for tomorrow and just make my romelette with some dumplings and possibly fries. I'am also just eating one time a day, so not healthy I know....
I plan to explain to my trainer on Monday that my body is weird...
IT hates rice( but I love rice)
and retains water weight like a bitch!!

I told him I want to get a body like Rhianna by July,


I just want a smaller waist,arms, and toned up legs!! Small tummy is a plus, but I dun mind sporting an egyptian pouch*

kickin it like its 1999(when I found kpop)

Since I'am becoming an old fart whose about to loose her dreams....

I just started remembering when I was a teeanager, who couldn't wait to grow up and make my dreams come true. Emo..I know...does that word still even exist among the youth these days?

This was all brought on due to my friend who auditioned to be the next VJ for MTVK(MTV_Korea). And I'am thinking to myself, "boy, I don't care if you're Korean, I know kpop more than you do! Even though you lived in Korea for 3 years..."
And when I was watching the people who auditioned, I imagined myself in a
"what if.."scenario and I remembered how I first got into Kpop..
I don't remember the day, but I remember it was in the year of 1999 before I started my freshman year of Highschool, so I guess it was around summer time. I was reading one of those teen magazines, possibly seventeen, when I stumbled across a article about this girl who was half korean. She was discussing how her best friend lived in S.Korea who she would visit her every summer, and their favorite band was H.O.T.

This wasn't the photo..and since these young whippersnappers dunno what H.O.T is, its hard to find the exact image but it was from their "WE ARE THE FUTURE" era
when I saw their photo all I thought was
"OMG.................THEY'RE HOT!! THEY LOOK LIKE VISUAL KEI ROCKERS!! I MUST FIND OUT HOW THEY SOUND!!" <--was already into Jpop/Jrock =)
So I went on AOL (for you youngins out there..be happy 56k dial up is a thing of the past) and was able to download mvs and mp3s of some of their songs. I downloaded
"Free to fly"
"we are the future" mv
"Candy" mv
"Happiness" mp3
yeah I was pretty much hooked!!
I then found out that you can get korean music cds in Flushing, Queens and got my parents to drive me to the store. I was so...not nervous, asking the Korean lady at the cd shop if she had a H.O.T CD (I pronounced them as HOT) lol, and she was like
"....you know..they sing in Korean right"
"yeah, I like them"
"oh Okay.."
and her husband told me they had a concert tape too and I was like
"MOMMY, can I buy it?!"
So I bought their 4th album "I Yah" as well as their concert video from Seoul 1999!
....When I watched their concert, I didn't give a fuck that I didn't understand what they were saying, I was just so happy to see them perform...and make believe I was there. When I started High School, I plastered my locker with H.O.T pictures and this Korean girl next to me was like "YOU KNOW ABOUT H.O.T?!" and we sang "free to fly" while walking home to the train station we never really got to be close friends and she transferred schools the next semester
Sadly the group disbanded 2 years after I discovered them, and even though that seems short, they been around since 1996 *3 years late...*
But H.O.T was my first acknowledged KPOP group that I was a big stan for....and everytime I think of them, I remember a time when my life wasn't as crazy/boring/uneventful/hard as I thought it was...

I even felt more "I'am so special" with Kpop because..like most American kids..I first heard Seo Taiji when I was 9 years old due to the movie "American Ninja's Kick back". Hollywood's ignorant ass can't tell the difference between the various Asian ethnic groups, so when the three heroes were driving down Tokyo, Seo Taiji "Nan Arayo" was playing in the background. I later discovered in 2005 that the song was Korean XD.
Even though nothing could replace H.O.T
I got into Shinhwa,S.E.S, CLEO, TAKE, Click-B, G.O.D, Sech kies, Seo Taiji,and DBSK*
*Ironically with DBSK I also became a fan of them 2 years before they broke up and they were around since 2005.....well they were the next H.O.T..so thats the irony of my life.
Its hard to still have a love of Kpop now a days since the groups keep getting younger, and I'am getting older *sighs*. Not to mention I don't feel Kpop is this secret "Omg you know about kpop!? Lets be friends! kinda world it used to be since its becoming more mainstream...well not that mainstream, but sorta like..not surprising if someone knows a Korean pop artist in the world.
It sucks being an ajumma...but yeah...the Kpop era from 1990-2003 will always have a special place in my heart...
All I needed was my kpop, and playing counter strike at a PC bang in flushing to feel I was part of their world.