Nagasaki Fashion edition

Well, looks like I had no time (well I did...but my bf's laptop was slow as hell) to update this blog with my fashion days when I went to Japan.
But now here are pics, sadly not full outfits since I didn't have a full mirror and I wasn't going to take pics of myself in public restrooms...


so here's most of my attire (All of my clothes came from either Wet Seal/Shasa/Body Central/ and Macy's)

Days 1-3 my bf's clothes due to not having my suitcase lol. Two wifebeaters with sweats.Lol kinda looks like the style from "Soul Sister"


Day 4
(Black vest, white fluffy shirt, with a black jumper suit underneath)


Day 4 revised
(black vest/white tank top/black jumper suit underneath with hat)


Day 5(White shirt, blue short jumper suit)


Day 6 White tank top/Black mesh dolman top/blue jeans


Day 8. yellow short sleeve peasant top, blue sailor pants




Day 7 supermarket wear: cut up sweat shirt, white tank top, grey sweats.

no make up or contacts, wee!!

yeah..this post sucks, but I decided when I go back to Japan, I will sitll be fashion conscious. So here we go fall! and back to loosing weight ( I gained 6lbs boo..)

GOTTA GET READY!!♫

Start the countdown, 5 days and counting!!
I almsot lost all of my weight(losing 8lbs is more ideal, but if I can shed these stubborn 5lbs off I'd be content), and I'am going clothes shopping tomorrow!!!



I've been looking at some Japanese fashion magazines, and
Boho is in!
since I'll be in Japan for 14days, I figure that I just need 14outfits which should be easy to acquire and not have me blow a lot of money.

Dress (see more maxi dresses)

I wanted this dress so badly!! but sadly its out of stock at UrbanOg...so I'am lookig for similar ones on other sites, but so far NOTHING! Okay well nothing like this.So I'am hoping they have it at the mall when I go shopping tomorrow.
Think I have no choice but to stick to Jcpenny's/Macy's(I have credit cards there) and yeah...limit my actual money at forever 21/Wet seal/ Charolette Russe/ and Shasa.

And I decided to buy another Yukata...(I now have 4..)


The other ones I had just looked too dull for the hairstyles I planned to wear.
My boyfriend decided he will buy one too when we go to watch the fireworks Sunday night. My issue so far is finding some geta.....the only site that could possibly carry my size is ,Mizutori/from Yesstyle.com
since I'am currently at work, its hard for me to read Mizutori's Japanese website, but I will inquire to see if they have a store in Nagasaki so I can buy them while I'am in Japan. I would've ordered them from yesstyle, but I'am hesisitant since I'am not sure if their LL size would really fit properly yes people..I got big feet!

And the second issue...wigs
yes Why in the world am I worrying about wigs? Well I tried on my Freetress Scarlet, the other day, but it looks way too brighter than the two Ozone wigs I was planning to wear T__T. Its too obvious..
So I think I'll just get 2 more wigs from the freetress line in the same colors so I can be like "I dyed my hair" pshh yeah right =p
But which colors..hmm well I still want to keep it dark, so I decided to stick to just plain auburnish colors, but when I switch up my wigs, they will have some blondish highlights that are more pronounced.


* Valerie actually is wearing the GF2/30/33 color


But thinking about it some more, even though I love angela's up do,I thought it would've looked great with my Yukata, I will just get Valerie and Berry becuase I don't like the coloring for angela in her GF2/30/33 format. And if I really like these wigs, I will purchase them at a later time in a blonder version( #G8643).
So I'll stick to Tiffany, Valerie, and Berry for the remaining days I spend in Japan.
I was going to order from Hairsisters, but their horror stories are scaring the hell out of me! Even though their site says their wigs are in stock, I don't know if they didn't update it to be sure. Its cheaper to go through them...IT SO FUCKING CHEAPER!But I decided to just order Giselle and Berry from beautyshoppers, and they should arrive by WED or Thursday.
I believe I'am set when it comes to shoes. I was going to buy some from Zappos,
and I still might just buy one pair I was looking at earlier, but I'am going to do my best tomorrow to go on the ground and search for some cheap/cute summer sandals.

So excited, yet my bank account hates me now, but it will look nice and full again by next week and by the 2nd week in August^^

update on life, recent purchases..and the dog!

So I got my golden blue nudy lens from HoneyColor.com!! And the verdict? They look just like my fresh look turquoise contacts when I took that picture of them. It looks alil freaky in my opinion, but I like how it comes out in pictures!! The olive wing series blue and violet are also cool, but I love the olive wing "blue" the most!!! It really stands out and just looks great with my natural hair color (Dark brown/reddish tint in sunlight=burgandy) or when I wear my dark(1b/2) color wigs!! I might invest in two more other contacts too...(I know I know..wtf am I splurging again?!)

I was looking at the old Adult series from EOS, and...thinking about getting them in "Blue" "Green" and possibly "brown"
Then the Angel Series from Geo(specifically blue)
Nudy Blue and the dolleye series from EOS brown(looks like a more effective version of the Olive Wing "brown"

But since I'm going to Japan in 3 weeks, I want to see if I can try to find these on the ground instead of paying a lot of shipping at other sites. Its always a win or lose situation with register airmail parcels.

So update


Now...back to...THE DOG!!
So we meet him on Sunday, and it was love at first sight!!! My father actually said "lets take him"!! So the verdict? DENIED!! Since we never owned a dog before, we were not the ideal situation for Bandit, and as much as it sucked to hear that, we understood what they were telling us in the end. So.....
WE GOT A PUPPY INSTEAD!! So I'm proud to welcome the new edition to our family

Kirara(kiki for shortyeah..I got the name from Inuyasha, SO WHAT?!)
She's 75% husky and 25% wolf(I don't see it..but her dad who is supposedly half wolf was freakin huge)
She has one brown eye and a blue eye "sorta like Bandit..but she's black/gray/white in terms of her color coating".
It took us 2 hours to get there due to bad mapquest directions, but it was worth it to be in puppy heaven!!! We met the puppies parents, and the father seemed very friendly..NOT to mention "HUGE!!" but the mom was so tiny in comparison.
So when I started playing with the puppies, all of them were cute, and we were really gunning for a male, but all the males didn't like being held except for one who started to warm up and be more playful towards the endKirara however stood out the most to us. She was very shy at first, but had no qualms about being held. When we saw her with her siblings she would be like a wall flower, but when provoked she was able to hold her own. We weren't ready to take her home just yet since we figured she'd be okay to go home when she was 8 weeks old (she was currently 6 weeks old),even though it seemed Kiki was more than ready! She was following my mom to her car when it was time to go lol. So we just did a down payment and will go to pick her up this Friday!!

I just hope she gets along with her big brother felix =)

And I discovered Oatmeal MAKES ME LOOSE WEIGHT!
BIKINI BODY HERE I COME!!

good news and not so good news?

So I spoke to my boss and I can have July 29 & July 30 off prior to my departure to Japan!!
This has me even more excited since Im now considering if I should leave that Thursday instead and surprise my bf at his restaurant!! But..I might not do this...cause I work that Thursday..and would have to rush home then rush to the airport....and I wanna look pretty...soo...NOT HAPPENING! But...the issue right now is ticket prices..
my bf will transfer the money to my account on Friday, but its like
I don't want to spend so much on a ticket (flying to Japan is no fuckin joke!! I remember only having to pay around $1,300 back in the day) but I'am alil wary now of buying these cheap tickets from cheapoair & onetravel. They're the only two sites I see that show cheap tickets to Nagasaki for around $1,600 but people always warn that they are not reliable!! I never had an issue with them when I booked a ticket before for Hisao back in 2010, but I dunno...*sighs* So should I spend alil extra for security or stress myself out till I'm actually on the plane cause my ticket went through? And its not like travelocity is a saint. I remember my horrible experience when I purchased my ticket, only to find out two months before I went to Japan, that it never went through! So I booked another flight(a couple of dollars extra) and what happens when I get to Haneda airport, taking my time to the check out lane at 6:15pm, cause my *new connecting flight didn't depart till 7:30pm? The ticket lady tells me my plane is to leave at 6:30 PM!! WHICH WAS MY OLD TICKET TIME!!! ARGH!! So yeah...just sorta weighing my options till Friday..

And now for the biggest stress of all....
Since I will be moving, I was talking to my mom about getting a dog for my dad since my cat will also be going with me. I don't want to talk about my family business on this blog...but lets just say, having a pet helps my dad, and with felix gone..I'm afraid it can throw him off. So I think a dog would be wonderful!! I was browsing online trying to get to this site, when I found this dog on this rescue animal website!!!


He's really beautiful,my friends say he looks evil, and his story made me really want to adopt him!When I read up on him , I found out he was saved after he was set to be euthanized at the animal shelter! I also read that he was due to undergo hiptransplant surgery yesterday, and he was up for adoption for over a year, so I really wanted to get him a home with my folks!! So far his profile said he was great with dogs and people, he's loveable, and very affectionate!! I already put in my application..and after impatiently waiting for a call, I called his foster care home and found out they were going to call me later tonight=/. I feel alil bad for going behind the rescue dog site, but he did have that extre info up...and said to contact him too sooOoo...not my fault?
Sadly the person's accent was too thick so I had a hard time understanding him over the phone so I had no idea what he was saying half the time....
All I could get from him was that

A)the dog would have to take medication for 3 months and that would cost $60
B)His owners abandonned him.
...I think he siad it was house damage related. But when I asked if that was the reason his nails were removed, he said no..so this leads me to the confusion of what did they disown him for??!
C)something else about costs which would cost $6,000
D)He's never lived with a cat before, so he's not sure how he'd act...

So yeah...not being able to understand his foster care dad was really pissing me off and stressing me out..so to me it felt like I came off as not caring or comprehending the responsibilities at hand. Its true I didn't comprehend the responsibilities, cause I couldn't understand what he was saying, but yeah..overwhelming!!
Regardless of how I came across, he agreed to meet with me on Sunday(I forgot if its this weekend or next weekend..but I feel it will be next weekend),sometime after 2:30pm...
Where?! I DON'T KNOW! THANKS AGAIN TO WONDERFUL ACCENT!! But he said I could e-mail him, and I will get the name of the place again....
My mom feels we can get the dog since she feels he's ready to get rid of him=/.
And then I feel bad for my mom..
at first she was like "sure" but now she's like "NOO!!..I DUNNO!?!"
Since I'll be gone for a year,or two..but now a days I wanna push it to a year, I admit thats a lot of responsibility or her...and I don't want to stress her out...so I plan to talk to her more tonight about her true feelings....
I just hope he can also bring the dog to my house so I can see if he growls and goes crazy if he sees felix or is nice and lovey dovey (okay I know lovey dovey is never gonna happen..but I would like to see how docile he is...with small animals)
The perfect scenario is the dog gets along with felix and vice versa, we leave for a year, come back, get a job in houston, live close to my parents, and take the dog back but let him sleep over with my folks every now and than for my dad..Or I move back in with my parents!! XD (my parents and I get along very well..so the need for my own space was never an issue)
And now im wondering if I should just get a puppy?That way Felix can whoop his ass into shape in terms of (IM THE BOSS)...but I really want to give this dog a home =(
Well we'll see what happens Sunday...



And weight update?...I hate my body...I gained back all the fat I lost in terms of muscle...LE SIGH!!!

Money makes the world go round(and here we go♫)

So I spoke to my accountant(mumsy) and it turns out I now have a $1500 spending limit on crap I want to spend on m'self in regards to saving up money for Japan.
So what does that mean?
I have to really think hard on what I want, and only purchase stuff I need...
I def need a laptop, so..
HP Garden dreams is a must but since I have a walmart credit card, I don't have to worry about paying it all in one sweep
Manga Debut 4: I can purchase later on....along with the wacom bamboo tablet before I leave.But debating if I should put this on my walmart credit card or bestbuy..
The circle lens I ordered The Geo nudy goldenblue ones from honeycolor.com still show they're being processed. Its been a week since I ordered them, sooo...if I don't hear anything by next week. PAYPAL DISPUTE!! And I'll just fedex them from Candylens.com. I should've learned from my old yukata dispute that express shipping with tracking is the best way to go for international stuff...le sigh
Clothes
I still didn't loose all the weight I wanted to, and I will start the dunkan diet tomorrow...sOOoooo, I have to wait to see how my body shape changes.

Here's to loosing 15lbs in 45days
2 more wigs..(I decided when I visit this summer, that I will be rocking a color #33 wigs!)
So I will be wearing Miami/Cara/and Scarlett!! But I'd wear miami the first day, and cara or scarlett for date dates*

♥♥


Plane ticket..........NOW THIS IS THE DOOZY! no boyfriend bashing, I promise
My boyfriend recently asked me how we were going to do the ticket thing. The options were A)I pay and he reimbuses me when I get to Japan
B) I have no idea what was plan B..but it did involve him paying for it alltogether...but he doesn't have a credit card....
If I want to go crazy on m'self...I dunno how I can purchase my ticket and buy stuff...I'd be broke till Augustplus I'm waiting to see when my boss would work on the July. She said she'd start working on it next week.Going with my intuition, I feel I will be working the last week of Saturday in July,or my boss could have me do two Saturdays in July making that weekend,I believe I'm off another 6day week. Ugh, as each day goes by, prices go up ($1,733!! LAST TIME IT WAS AROUND $1,650!)(T_____T) DAMMIT! I can go cheaper if I take a late flight, but I'd arrive in Japan on a Monday if I left on a Saturday(WTF!!??). I'm willing to go the cheap route if I can get that Friday off as well, but I dunno yet. Is there a silver lining in my suffering?YES! I can now spend more than 8days in Japan cause of my trip to NYC has been pushed back to September, but I'm sad to say I don't think I can see my friend Glo before she leaves for S.Korea. My mom doesn't want to drive up to for 5days.....ugh. So I have to try and arrange a date to visit her in Korea =(. I really wanted to hangout with my high school friends again together as a group....just hanging at mimi's house, ordering Japanese food from Saji's near Columbia University where they used Adobo from Goya in their seasoning!!Or atleast it tasted like they did whenever I ordered their katsudon!! And we'd just joke around scaring the hell out of Mimi's grandma....I miss those simple times, and it sucks I can't experience it one more time before I leave(unless I miraculously discover a couple of bucks so I can go away for the 4th of july weekend...)yeah...I'm in a funk mood now that I can't do this with my friends...



No more shallow talk. My friends mean a lot to me, and it hurts me to know that since I moved, we grew apart. But yet, if we hangout, all of those crappy emotions go away. Like,when I called Glo for her bday 2 weeks ago, the laughter and shouting...I felt like I was there..but not there.I have no idea what or how Mimi is, and I do speak to Gloria every now and then, but not so much since usually when I get home I start working out, and pass out and its the same for her. As for Mally and Andrea, we communicate better in person than on the phone/internet. I miss those crazy girls...

I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO REUNITE WITH MY FRIENDS BACK IN NYC!!

Birthday Surprise - Success- & minor random stuff

So my package has finally arrived in Japan!!
he's eating my cookies♥♥♥
and developed horrible stomach pains later resulting in him staying on the toitlet for 6hours...lol just joking

They tried to deliver it on Saturday, but Hisao was at work, so they re-delivered early in the morning on Sunday.
He was really surprised when he saw the note left from the Postman on his door! He tried to trick me saying there were terrorist threats at his post office but I tried to make him believe I didn't send him anything haha.
So he ate my horrible cookies infront of me and was really happy ^___^


now, back to me...
I tried getting a walmart card today and was denied in the store
There are only two reasons this happened:
1)I don't have enough credit cards to show I have good credit
2)The lady at walmart said sometimes chase blocks people from using them as a credit source..
yet I just tried to apply for it online, and I GOT IT!!
WTF?!
I should have my card in 7-10 days, and then I plan to buy my laptop, manga debut 4, and wacom tablet!!

I also decided to buy 3 more circle lens (or two...still iffy about a certain pair)
I was thinking for the longest time about getting violet contact lens...
so I was eyeing the Violet wing series



I think the violet would work well with my 33 color wigs, but then it was a tough fight between the Geo Nudy Series (Golden Blue & Blue)

My main thing is I kinda want the golden blue to still give off a blue feel...
in some pics it looks bluish and other times it looks down right grey/greenish...

If the golden blue can imitate my old fresh look turquoise contacts then I'd be so happy!!

I was also thinking of investing in Jillian Michaels 30day shred since I only have two my sessions with my trainerwhich I never re-scheduled due to a miscommunication mishap. SO far the reviews are really good, but I read it can fuck up your knees =X. I did one of her dvd workous before, and I did notice alil tone up in my legs, but stopped since I got bored doing the same shit over and over...
She claims I can loose 20lbs in 30days..so lets see...at this point, fuck weight, I wanna loose my inches!!!I wanna buy my summer clothes already!!!

I THINK I FOUND THE LAPTOP I WANT!!

HP Garden Dreams from Walmart!!


ITS SO FREAKIN CUTE!!!
various youtube videos showing the HP Garden dreams in action *I had a video up before, but it was made private, uhh sorry?(^^;;)
What totally sold me besides the design was the webcam features!! If I ever want to venture into Vlogging, this laptop has a lot of media features to make it cute and funny for me =)

And whats the price?!?! $478
SO I think I will purchase a walmart card, so I can pay it off monthly,and buy it very soon!
They no longer sell any new ones though, they only have refurbished laptops...but this is just for me when I go to Japan, so no biggie on brand spanking new stuff!
I just need a laptop has a webcam so I can talk to my mama, go online, and allow me to draw my comic when I purchase my tablet and Manga studio 4 =).

I also got some of my wigs (Mel, Gwen, and Uptown girl)
Sadly, the only one I'am in love with is Mel and Uptown Girl. Once again LHB lied to me about how Gwen looks. The color looks just like Abby and the Champgane colors for 27/30/33...dull and boring!!
MEL is huge as F*CK though!! LIKE SERIOUSLY HUGE!! But I love the color and the way the hair feels for the "Model Model" line..."
So all thats left is to purchase Nari =p and I'm done...

And now its time to seriously, seriously diet! I just realized I have 8 weeks till I go to Japan on vacation..and I'm still no where near my weight/body goal for the summer...so lame...My personal trainer only has one more day with me, than I'm on my own!! I think I want to sign up for another personal trainer...at a gym. THIS WEIGHT MUST GO!! I WANT MY RHIANNA BODY DAMMIT!!!

Operation Birthday Surprise!!!

So I have already sent my goodie package to Hisao for his Birthday (^___^)
and it cost me $94 to do it...Jesus Christ, its been so long since I sent him stuff to Japan, costs have gone sky high!!!. This was a last minute idea since he keeps harping on wanting a iPaD, PSP, and the Nintendo 3DS. When I asked him if it would be better to send him his gifts, he said he would rather wait for me to come to Japan to bring him stuff oppose to send him a gift. However, I still wanted to be special and send him something!!
so I baked him some chocolate rasberry crumb bars, which was fun..but I messed them up!! They're really tough to eat since I didn't let them cool properly T__T
I also sent him Dr.Pepper soda (6 pack) and two bags of durritos a few of his favortie things. I also said I had a part II gift, but honestly I dunno what else to get him....
He said he's probably going to buy the iPad himself, so maybe a psp on my end?
I feel alil bad since he bought me that necklace from crescent-luna (same one that Jaejoongwore) which was around $300 bucks (^_^;;)
So ehh....What to do.....he's also paying for my plane ticket...argh!! I need another job!! I'm just worried about my budget and my need to be selfish.... I still didn't buy any summer clothes due to the fact I still didn't loose all the weight I wanted to, and yeah...DAMN TRAINER!! he cancelled on us again!!
and then shoes!! Shoes are going to be my biggest concern when I go to Japan, so I should mainly worry about that more than clothes...my shoes from Poetic License..and Garibelle Rocho...*sighs*
sadly, I don't think Zappos ships to Japan T___T, ofcourse I must ask, just like how I found out my beloved Darcy Botanicals ships to there!!

Going back to my wig hoarding...
I was just supposed to get
Gwen
Mel
Uptown Girl
Than Nari (in 2 colors)
But than I FOUND TIFFANY!!!!!



This horrible (cute, volumptuous lace front wig) Tiffany!!! And ofcourse I had to have her in the same color!!! So I would usually get my wigs from Mimi's beauty supply store, but I didn't see that color listed in their stockbut I asked anyways. I found it on another website,ebonyonline, and it was ther last stash for the Tiffany DX2733, but they had it in a DX4733 which when I think about it..is only two shades darker
So I ordered it from ebonyonline, which cost me $4.51 more than mimi's(41.62), and what happens when I check my email at work? Mimi emails me and says they did have the color T___T, and I couldn't cancel my previous order with ebony since they already shipped it..UGH!!! So now, I only have two more wigs left...Nari...and I can only choose two colors....
so its a fight between a regular black colored wig...and a colorful wig, or two colorful wigs....
*sighs* black is just sOooOoo BORING for me hairwise....*pic of me wearing a black bob wig.
I seriously loathe dark colors now, even 4 colors are lame as hell unless they have some serious streaks/highlights in them!! So I think I will get nari in a
33/32/240* Video of Nari in action
(keeping it as dark as possible) and a G8643!!

Then, I'm done!! No more wigs..ever again! I seriously need to start saving up my money so I can purcahse a laptop as well as my other necessities. I'm seriously considering getting another job so I can have spending money...I need to buy things dammit!!!


This weekend I plan to fix my best buy credit card limit so I can purchase Manga Studio debut 4, my tablet, as well as inquire about a laptop since I will need that when I'm in Japan. Best buy's minimum payment for stuff we buy monthly is $10, which I will be able to factor in my master plan, and can continue to pay when I'm in Japan.

I was looking at the Sony VAIO P Series VPC-P111KX/P series, but I'm going to ask them for advice on which one would be the best laptop for using my manga debut 4 program I have a feeling a MAC would be best..but I don't want no damn Mac!! Ima PC girl!!


AND NOW....Pics of Hisao's Bday Surprise and the drawing I did for him



This pic was actually inspired from Nana haha...


The box I put his cookies in

and yeah..thats it♥, hopefully it gets to Japan before his Bday..or atleast a day after...or at all!!

wigs or other stuff?

So after budgeting my finances between now and October, I came to a tough decision if I should invest in 6 more wigs, or stop my wig hoarding and buy other stuff I want...


This weekend I was this close to purchasing Manga Studio Debut 4

And the wacom bamboo tablet

yeah for declined best buy card!! Since I didn't use it for a year, my limit of spending $700, went down to $105...
But I seriously want to get back into drawing...and as boring as I think my life can be from time to time,or whoever is reading this blog..my life is boring isn't?, I think there is some humor that is worthy to draw, especially when I move to Japan. For example this comic online
Life After the BOE is related to someone's JET experience in Japan. Its short, and about to end soon, but I do find most of the scenario's funny.
I planned to start from my high school days and work it all the way up to my present life. But I'm debating if I should just do it as a one scene panal shot, or make it out like an actual multiple one scene panal.
Sadly, I'm still in wig hoarding mode and currently have been eyeing this other wig!


Mel from Model Model, the curly waves look so cute!! And they finally re-stocked this color!!
And I still want to get Nari!!


I guess you can say, even though I'll be going on vactaion to Japan in August, when I go to live in October, I will like to have an urban apperance(occasional gal here and there). So between my natural hair, and however long it gets between now and October, I want to emulate Junko from Nana.
yes...I'm looking at a manga character for advice, but to be fair Ai Yazawa went to school for fashion! And Junko dresses like a urban chic and gets a curly perm to mimic African American hair in the 3c type range which my hair can not due on humid days like today!!!
So who knows....I actually wanted to purchase 6 more wigs, but perhaps I'll just bring it down to 3(Uptown girl in the color 27/30), kick the wig hoarding habit, and finally start saving up on my dinero..


Hisao's birthday is coming up...
He said he wanted a psp,a nintendo ds,...or an ipod touch lol...
I plan to surprise him with one of the three another day,pref. when I go see him in August or when he comes to visit in September for our anniversary hopefully, but in the interum, I plan to make him chocolate rasberry bars!!

and some other snacks he misses from America. Gotta fatten him up!!! He's gotten so skinny T__T and I don't want to look like a blimp next to him!! I hate how I'm loosing inches but not pounds...

Edit:// Wigs won...lol. I got Mel,Gwen, and Uptown Girl.But now I just plan to purchase one more(Nari) than I'm done!! No more wigs!! FOREVER!!
I'll get the manga studio debut 4 & the wacom tablet later this summer...
I also need to get a laptop..aiii yaii yaii

Satoshi Kanazawa-Kiss my beautiful black ass..oh wait! My ass is too good for you!!

So apparently, Black women are not attractive according to Mr.Kanazawa's study that was published on PsychologyToday. It has been removed but it was cached & posted on various
websites
Mr.Kanazawa states that Black women are not as attractive as their male counterparts for the following reasons:
We have a higher BMI mass...
We have more testosterone making us look manly
We're not intelligent..so we should just diebut he said this for black people as a whole
We have mutated genes making us ugly(...Kung tribe you f*ckin asshole! WTF you think you got them almond eyes from?! Africa is a continent with the most diverse ethnic groups of the world!! If it wasn't for our ancestors in Africa, humanity wouldn't exist, and they wouldn't have migrated to Asia to give birth to your dumbass!!!!"
And even though we think we're beautiful, we're wrong to believe this...
Pharyngula &Karnythia
basically sums up what I have to say if I could handle my rage...

To sum up his *supposed* findings on his intellectual study...I had to consult Red Forman,bad ass father in my eyes. and his opinion on Kanazawa's shittastic findings??


I mean seriously now, seriously? Your ass really wants us to believe this shit?!
I'am so pissed off, I'am having a hard time as I type this to not just use my my book of Swearsaurus to rant...okay here it goes.
Growing up, I felt I wasn't attractive because I didn't fit society's standard of beauty. I was chubby,short hair, and black...the shit you said that makes us least attractive, so this shit did bring up bad memories of my teenage life...
I always had my hair natural, but my mom would give into my wishes to blow it out straight and go over it with a hot comb. I remember when I had a crush on this guy, he told me I'd look better with straighter hair, and thats when I got my first relaxer at the age of 16. It took a long time for me to develop some self-esteem, but I'm glad to have found it, all thanks to people not like you who kept telling me I was beautiful regardless of what the media tried to say! And it hurts me to know this repugnant troll is allowed to voice his opinions in the name of science!! This is the type of shit that if I read when I was younger, I'd seriously question my self-worth! I am a beautiful black woman, my mother and father always told me I was beautiful and to be proud of who I am and our heritage!! So for my parents, and my ancestors who did all they could to survive and make life better for their descendent's, FUCK YOU MR. KANAZAWA!!
Black women are intelligent,strong and beautiful!! All of us our living proof that we are descendent's of strong people!! So get off your self-hating ass by putting us Black people down and love yourself!! Than maybe if you're lucky, some weaboo would actually want to mate with you, but miracles don't happen overnight...but seriously..fuck you!

And

DO I look manly to you?

Do I look like I have a high BMI mass?

I thought not...
p.s. My bf said I'am sexy as hell, so you're argument is seriously invalid
Plus the men who've been attracted to me in my life..even when I was chubby XD

lol this is my normal look btw without the wigs and sporting my le poofy♥
I love this fab hair so much, can't wait for her to explode in width and length XD

Now onward to write a lengthy e-mail(with no cussing) to Satoshi Kanazawa.
My bf also will write a letter to him in Japanese...this should be fun! I Wish we could youtube this instead...

training woes...

I haven't seen my trainer since last Thursday T_________T
He kept cancelling on us and to make a long story short: We'll give him one more chance to fuck up, and after that..I want the money for the classes I didn't take back!!

I eat salad so got damn much...I think my body would go into shock if I skipped it for one day. I am getting alil bored of my diet, and want to eat other food
( I MISS RICE!! I MISS ASIAN FOOD!! I MISS WEST INDIAN FOOD!!)
I thought there was a God when I got hooked on these hidden food bombs right here!

Vietnamese Spring rolls!! From Kroger's...
Sadly these were made with rice noddles and not bean noddles....so its fattening for me cause rice is my mortal enemey. Anyways....I hope I can get to the gym today. My trainer has yet to txt me back the code to get into the gym through the back instead of the front. NO LUCK SO FAR! Luckilly my co-worker from my job also lives at the same apartment, so Ima ask her instead. Time to do some squats and lower legs workout! Than tomorrow, upper body...Rhianna body...I CAN DO THIS!!

Mother's day follow up + funny animal story & facial stuff

So for mother's day I got my mama some Shea Moisture and Curls products since she is now natural + some body soap and lotion!! It cost me $109.00 in total for her, but I also bought some shea moisture body soap + lotion for m'self...and that flat iron I spoke about before from conair...and facial lotions/cleansers...
Ugh! I just want my skin to be more smoother/clearer!! I hate how I still have this blemish from 4 weeks ago!!! And that I have dark circles under my eyes and mini lines T_____T. I know I should sleep better..but ugh, I want them gone!!
So I purchased the Yes to Blueberries:Eye Firming Treatment
As well as most of the entire line of products:The cleasner,Facial Towelettes,Overnight Hydrating Cream , and Daily Moisturizer.
I have noticed improvement with my nose and the blackheads they accumulate. They have went down significantly since I started using the St'Ive's Apricot scrub. I still get lil pimples around my jawline here and there though -_-.
Also since I purchased the B&C Skin Tight In-Growth Hair & Razor Bump Creme, my ingrown hairs on my neck have vanished!! I mean, I still get them, but they're easier to pull out and I don't get horrible pimple infected ingrown hairs!! So now I'm not afraid to get rid of my neck hair!! I was also debating if I should invest in the No!No! hair removal
that I saw advertised on Tv. They have a 60-day risk free trial, and if I like it, I have to pay two installments of $89.95. I have until tonight to decide since thats when the trial ends...ugh...I blew so much money already...I feel I shouldn't look at anything else!!


And I'm eyeing this new wig at LHbotique!! THE COLORS THE STYLE!! MUST HAVE IT!!!

Now for the funny animal story!! For staff development day, we went to the Safari Resort Ranch in Richmond, TX that had some peacocks walking around. My natural affinity for animals was determined to have one of them eat from my hand! So during our break, I went back out with my co-workers with some cookies&chips (RELAX!! THE COOKIES WERE RAISIN FLAVORED WITH NO CHOCOLATE IN IT!) and started feeding one of the males. He successfully ate from my hand when I noticed another male around the corner. So I started feeding him when I heard a "CA CCAAWWW", and out of nowhere I saw the other peacock male I fed before come storming over toward him. Lol, this startled the new male making him fly into my face and my co-workers running away screaming. Lol, apparently the old male didn't want to share me with anyone..how sweet?

p.s: Pissed my trainer cancelled on me today!! I was starting to see results, but our days are always fuckin off!! MY mother and I plan to confront him on whats going on
>(. He pretty much taught us how to workout, so at this point we should get a refund!!But he pushes us so well..ARGH!